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Weight loss
Jan. 11th, 2024 12:06 pmIn recent times my obsession with weight loss has sparked up again. The last time I was this obsessed was 2022, around September-November. But this time I've finally gotten into Lose It and going to the gym. There's a really lovely gym around 30 minutes walk from my house.
I think I'm improving with the food side. Because I'm pretty sure that's the most important step in losing weight. I've been eating less and less and healthier, too. I know most people say you shouldn't eat little, but I know for a fact that that's what's going to get me to lose weight, because it already has. I've already got a little plan, too. For breakfast, weetabix with milk and a little honey... Around 50 calories. And for lunch I'll alternate between a smoked salmon sandwich (around 150 calories?) or some pineapple (around 40 calories). Yesterday I had pineapple, so I suppose today it'll be the sandwich. In case anybody out there is reading this, don't tell me "no! that's too little! you'll die!" I promise you, you won't have to worry. I weigh 70 kg and I'm around 166 cm tall. There's no need to worry, I won't starve.
Onto another point: I've finally got chewing gum again! Chewing gum and water are your best friends for when you wanna snack on something. Chewing gum in particular. 0 calories but it's not flavourless. I know it's depressing to be excited about gum, but I haven't had gum in a while, so I'd snack on something instead... I can't have cookies, it's too much calories! I'll just eat a banana. And some yogurt too. And an apple. And some breadsticks. And some cheese. And some ham. And then the cookies. Solution... Chew gum!!!!!! The only problem is that, if you're like me, you'll run out after like, a week. Or a day, if it's the longer, thin, rectangular gum wrapped in paper and inside a folding box.
I'm going to be much more optimistic. Of course I won't lose weight in a day. And sometimes you've got your highs and sometimes you've got your lows. But you can make up for the low by having an extra high day! For example, a couple weeks ago, my mom's friend got me a whole box of chocolates... Bad idea. I ran out pretty quick. So I made up for it. The next day, I walked to the gym and I was there for like, 1/2 hours? And then I walked back! It's easy. Also... Outside of the gym, I still walk a lot. Every day I have to walk around 2k steps to the train station, then during school I walk maybe 4-6k steps, depending on how much walking I do that day. On P.E. days I'll walk more steps than usual, I think. And today I'll probably have less steps cuz I had two classes in a row in the same room. It is what it is.
But I will be honest- and here comes the more serious part- It's really rough. Every day I feel like I don't make any progress. I feel like I've gained more weight, honestly. And the fact that everyone at my school is skinny and athletic doesn't make me feel any better. In my whole year there's, like, 2 other people who are, erm... you know, not skinny. But they do sports and stuff. So they don't get as made fun of. The most 'sport' I do is going to the gym. I'm not very athletic at all. I get a tiny bit winded walking up the stairs. But it's a process. I will never lose weight in a day. Never. I just have to keep this up. And I have to fight my temptations. Cut down on sugar. Everything in moderation... And, a bit of a more harmful one, but... "nothing tastes as good as skinny feels"... On that note, did you know that Kate Moss called me beautiful once? I was a baby, but still. Maybe that's a sign of something.
I think I'm improving with the food side. Because I'm pretty sure that's the most important step in losing weight. I've been eating less and less and healthier, too. I know most people say you shouldn't eat little, but I know for a fact that that's what's going to get me to lose weight, because it already has. I've already got a little plan, too. For breakfast, weetabix with milk and a little honey... Around 50 calories. And for lunch I'll alternate between a smoked salmon sandwich (around 150 calories?) or some pineapple (around 40 calories). Yesterday I had pineapple, so I suppose today it'll be the sandwich. In case anybody out there is reading this, don't tell me "no! that's too little! you'll die!" I promise you, you won't have to worry. I weigh 70 kg and I'm around 166 cm tall. There's no need to worry, I won't starve.
Onto another point: I've finally got chewing gum again! Chewing gum and water are your best friends for when you wanna snack on something. Chewing gum in particular. 0 calories but it's not flavourless. I know it's depressing to be excited about gum, but I haven't had gum in a while, so I'd snack on something instead... I can't have cookies, it's too much calories! I'll just eat a banana. And some yogurt too. And an apple. And some breadsticks. And some cheese. And some ham. And then the cookies. Solution... Chew gum!!!!!! The only problem is that, if you're like me, you'll run out after like, a week. Or a day, if it's the longer, thin, rectangular gum wrapped in paper and inside a folding box.
I'm going to be much more optimistic. Of course I won't lose weight in a day. And sometimes you've got your highs and sometimes you've got your lows. But you can make up for the low by having an extra high day! For example, a couple weeks ago, my mom's friend got me a whole box of chocolates... Bad idea. I ran out pretty quick. So I made up for it. The next day, I walked to the gym and I was there for like, 1/2 hours? And then I walked back! It's easy. Also... Outside of the gym, I still walk a lot. Every day I have to walk around 2k steps to the train station, then during school I walk maybe 4-6k steps, depending on how much walking I do that day. On P.E. days I'll walk more steps than usual, I think. And today I'll probably have less steps cuz I had two classes in a row in the same room. It is what it is.
But I will be honest- and here comes the more serious part- It's really rough. Every day I feel like I don't make any progress. I feel like I've gained more weight, honestly. And the fact that everyone at my school is skinny and athletic doesn't make me feel any better. In my whole year there's, like, 2 other people who are, erm... you know, not skinny. But they do sports and stuff. So they don't get as made fun of. The most 'sport' I do is going to the gym. I'm not very athletic at all. I get a tiny bit winded walking up the stairs. But it's a process. I will never lose weight in a day. Never. I just have to keep this up. And I have to fight my temptations. Cut down on sugar. Everything in moderation... And, a bit of a more harmful one, but... "nothing tastes as good as skinny feels"... On that note, did you know that Kate Moss called me beautiful once? I was a baby, but still. Maybe that's a sign of something.
